Life Has A Crush On You

Falling in love with Life one day at a time…

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Mind Candy

My morning tradition was disrupted today when I left my iPod in the car that Drew took to work. Somehow, on this rainy Wednesday, this seemed to be a good thing. It seemed to welcome in some space without words into my morning.

I realized that while I love and find it useful and powerful on so many levels to start my day by walking to the bus stop listening to a program, a speaker or something inspiring, it is powerful too to hear yourself some mornings.

Instead of trying to stuff down some programming, I decided to gently step out into programming myself. I was quick to realize that even the positive thoughts and affirmations I used to say, those that come naturally and almost immediately to mind when I think – ok, lets affirm- seem stale, or at least burdened with a twinge of disbelief from my heart.

That is the last thing I want – inauthentic words. Empty vessels trying to create something.

No. The entire power and purpose of affirming, of self-speak, is the emotional certainty you feel with the repetition and knowing of what you are saying.

So this morning I had to back track. I had to be completely honest with myself. When I said something and it didn’t feel “right”, then I lessened the degree. I turned back and let go a bit, and said something new.

It was as if my mind was in yoga. Just as when I enter into a pose, I find the edge – and while I think  “Oh, your growth will be if you push through and go beyond this limit”, my wise self says “Oh, ok, that is where the limit is. You see it; you found it, now back off a bit and breathe. The limit will dissolve by your working at this lesser place.”

It is interesting when you sit with your own mind – in walking meditation, or sitting meditation- without any other words. No voices guiding you. No songs luring you. Just you, being you.

So, while I started this morning with grandiose phrases – ones that I had used before – I ended up being at two simple ones. These were the ones that “clicked”. These felt right. So I stayed there. I dwelled in the rain saying to myself – out loud and quietly – “My job is fast, easy and fun. My job is fast, easy and fun. My job is fast, easy and fun.”

And eventually, it came – the soothing, quiet phrase that whispered to my soul and tasted so good I couldn’t leave it all morning – it was a gentle, “I love you, Elizabeth.” It was a true surrender of all the self-improvement talk – of all the let’s be the best – let’s do better- self-speak that I hadn’t even realized was crowding up my mind quite so much.

So today, this is my mind candy. This is the refreshing drink to my thirsty soul. This is the day, I turn everything else off – and I turn myself on – even if it’s a quiet, ever so gentle whisper. This is the day that I remember, that I really do deeply love myself, as much as, I love others.

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Unbreakable Joy

There are mornings when I awake that are filled with in breakable joy. I know I write about this often but it’s as if these thoughts and emotions fill me up so much to the brim of my being that they have to overflow. While they spill out in conversations and meetings and yoga or whatever I am doing, I can’t help but to feel even greater joy to let them spill onto the page.
Without effort, while still in bed everything reminded me if the Divine blessings my life is filled with today. My mattress was soft and the quilts on it warm. We were safe in our home all night. I was still satisfied from a delicious meal that was enjoyed with my family, a family that made sacrifices for each other and family that is all together, a family that celebrates and is healthy. I have a toothbrush and toothpaste! I have running water. There are so many clothes in my closet and we could literally choose whatever we wanted for breakfast. There were messages from loved ones on my phone and a dog to wake me out of bed. There was peace with my job and a joy that I have one and one I like. The man I love more than anything was singing in the kitchen. Thoughts and ideas of how I can contribute and contribute easily came to me and added to my excitement, an excitement that time and time again brings me to my knees in great awe.
So what could this mean for you? Really whatever you want it to. But I hope that with this spillage you realize that you too are invited to this unbreakable joy. That with every faucet you turn on, with every sip of clean water, with very heated room and every caring person, you are reminded of your status as elite, as blessed, as royalty of this world and life. This is a day filled with these and so many more miracles. I pray you feel as full from them as I do now and forever.

Happy Thoughts

Salted Avocado on Stone Ground Crackers

Committing to projects that thrill you

Staying up late with your thoughts and excitement

The strange feeling of goodbye to a year past

Taking a whole day to get organized at work

The fresh start when you take down your holiday decorations

Finding a great new and applicable app

Always having your favorite pen with you

A beautiful new calendar for a beautiful new year

The Munford and Sons Pandora Station

Being aware of what you can add to any environment – a smile, a happy thought, a blessing

Committing to a tea time everyday

Harnessing the masculine energy of taking big things and making them small

Recognizing the feminine energy of taking small things and making them big

A vase of colored pencils

Doing math

A clean inbox

Not waiting to do something

How everything can be done if its broken into smaller chunks

The Bored List – 20 plus things you can do instead of TV

Dream Boards

Drinking more than enough water every day

Fearlessly claiming what you are about

Making your life more like camp

The things you say to yourself when you first wake up

Listening to your body

Violin solos in songs

Antonio Vivaldi

Pleasant surprises

Getting back into a routine

Feeling joyous with every breath

The bag of resources you always carry around with you – a smile or compliment on your lips, a listening ear, a hug in your arms

Nesting for Christ

There was something off this morning. I couldn’t put my finger on it. I keep on thinking and relating tonight’s Christmas service to going to the hospital. To an actual birth, of an actual child in today’s modern age. But it wasn’t until my meditation that I really understood what was going on. While visions of cleaning the house, and organizing my closet, and finalizing gifts, rushed through my mind, my heart was simply not with it. These to do lists of everything surrounding me were the “nesting” aspects of bringing in a new child to a home. Yet I quickly, oh so very quickly, realized that it was not my home that needed to be prepared – it was me.

I could feel a literal pull from my heart and immediate tears well in my eyes. My deepest desire  was more that  the clutter in my heart that was taking up the space for this new Light be removed and I be connected again. I needed to nest myself, not my home, for this coming Child and all that He promises.

So my tearful prayer is that while I have become off-balance with my devotion and spiritual practices, that I too may be restored. My prayer is that I am made ready for the Joy, the Bliss, the Promise of Christmas. My preparation in this 11th hour is that I may practice self love, which might entail sitting in a messy home, just telling myself “I love you”, despite the bloat from Christmas treats, or the list that is hard to forget that streams through my mind. I ask that I may be ready for the coming Life. I ask that I may be restored to be a clear channel of the coming Joy. I ask that my ego be silenced, and Love pour through my body and seep into my mind in an endless stream. I ask today, that I be made ready and whole for the promise of Life that is coming.

“Today I prepare myself for the Divine in all its glory to come and live within me.”

The Spiritual Sounding Board

I consider myself very blessed. One of my greatest blessings is to have a best friend whose standards of life and joy and personal conduct are so truthfully aligned that you can literally not bring anything to her that is not your highest and best. It’s not as if she judges you at all. It’s more that somehow she sees you and life clearer. She sees and expects what you could be and doesn’t waste her time with the junk or the clutter or the muddled. It’s always been very clear to me this Divine Quality she has. It is like a spiritual sounding board- you just can’t lie to her like you can yourself. It’s a friendship where there is no room for excuses.
It is truly a rare and special gift to have this person in your life. Just their presence seen or unseen lifts you up to the next level. Their perspective, unblurred from their distance, offers the honest and true advise that is usually the missing link in getting yourself to the next level.
Thank you Life for such a friend.

Authentic Steps towards your Authentic Self

Almost everything feels awkward at first try. Yet when you are walking on the path of your Divine Life, despite this awkwardness, there is a Divine excitement that permeates the entire experience. While it can be hard to articulate, its undeniable. Whether it is the first kiss with a true love, the first day at a new job, or the first experience working with a lifelong pastime, something will click. Yet this doesn’t mean that there won’t be a mistake or many made as we start out on this journey. It’s important for us to accept this imperfection of awkwardness, despite the fact that we are so competent in so many things in life. Just because we have already mastered walking, doesn’t mean that there aren’t experiences in our life where we must learn to crawl again. I think it all boils down to a simple, yet not often asked question. Are you willing to make mistakes for God? Are you willing to look like a fool in pursuit of your Life’s passion? Are you willing to risk shattering the ego? Are you willing to walk in a new way? Cracks are needed for the seed to break through. Mistakes are a necessity to growth. Even when you begin down the path that you are certain is the right one for you – in your career, in love, in service – accept the fact that just because it is Divinely oriented, doesn’t mean that our humanness won’t make a mess sometimes. The Divine has the capability to clean anything up, yet, what we consider a “mess” might simply be God using every tool possible to help us grow. There is a reason we use the metaphor of being “children of God”, because in this journey, we are learning yet again how to model ourselves after the Divine. There will be falls. There will be tears. But just as the Divine can use situations and others to redirect us or push us down before we learn something the wrong way, it also has access to the billions of arms of others to help us back up. Becoming confident in our new steps walking on the Divine path will take time. Remember that. But with each one you are closer and closer to your Highest Self. There will be a time when you have mastered walking with God, and you will find yourself not only running, but dancing and flying through your beautiful life.

Distance for Peace

Have you ever had a week that so busy you didn’t know you could do so much? A week where at the end you try to catch your breath after the sprint, to find yourself running, not knowing how to stop. The holidays can do this. End of the year reports and things to complete. Exams. Gifting. Parties. Decorating. Travel. It’s all very wonderful, but it is also all very condensed. I can feel this in my mind. It’s like the space that used to be in there that allowed me to come and visit, play, dance in its expanse had been taken over by a “to do list”. There is nothing wrong with lists. I Love them! But there is something amiss when the list controls me, not me the list. It’s a very fine line of what motivates me. “Having” to do something makes a task, or even the season, taste bitter. Yet pausing. Breathing. Looking at the lights that fill the trees and my life can reset me and you. I realize that the God who designed so perfectly entire universes can put into perfect orbit your life, no matter how many planets you have surrounding you. (A perfect analogy to go replace “juggling”.) Yet we must look closely at God’s design. Integral, yet commonly missed, is a key ingredient in all perfection and nature – from astronomy to quantum physics to one’s cells. They all must have space. Electrons can do their job because they are in a different orbit. The Earth has its seasons and perfect elements for life because of our distance from the sun. So may we all remember at the time of our life and of the year to maintain the distance and honor the holy whose forces keep everything moving and in its place.

It’s riskier to be yourself but it’s the only way you’ll win

The truth is that the only chance you have at winning anything- especially the the desires of your heart- is by being fully and totally yourself. The gift you can give to the world is a gift because no one else can bring it to creation. Its development, its birth, its distribution is dependent upon nothing but you being you.
The hiccup in this overly simple process is that for you to be you is actually one of the riskiest things we feel we can do. The ego argues that if we are fully ourselves and the world rejects it then we are worthless. It even goes to the extreme of having us think of the death of our dreams and inspiration. It’s ironic that the ego’s argument involves us hoarding our greatest gifts, instead of sharing them. Yet the reality is, as we have discussed before, that the only chance of something surviving and thriving is giving it away. While the ego argues the risks of giving ourselves completely, while it whispers strongly that vulnerability is weakness, Life knows the Truth which is directly opposite. If you aren’t fully yourself, if your gifts to the world aren’t all that you are, then the gifts back from Life won’t be exact matches for your soul. Life gives in direct proportion to your own giving. The risk is not found in being and sharing ourselves fully. The risk lies in not doing so.

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Millionaires of Life

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We so often pray for wealth, but what is it really that we are asking for. Security? Love? Significance? Ease? Exactly what is it that wealth represents to you?

What if instead of wealth we asked to be massively contributive to the lives of others? What is instead of asking for dollars, we asked for skills, love, compassion and understanding to be used in the service of others? What if wealth was measured by the value we add to other’s lives? What if this was our focus- to add wealth in the forms of security, love, significance, adventure, ease and peace to all those we meet everyday? Would we not be millionaires of the Life?

Happy Thoughts

 

Wrestling with an angel

 

Accepting that you’re not there yet

 

Running during your lunch break

 

Seeing the end of a long stretch of work

 

Poinsettias

 

The tradition of live nativity scenes

 

Having to trust in God

 

Being divided as you grow another business

 

Accepting this

 

Sneaking yoga under yellow-leaved tress

 

Embracing Social Media

 

A deep clean to your office

 

A deep clean to your most recent proposal

 

Getting a handle on things

 

The sound of a chime calming you instantly

 

Reading a funny book

 

Old barns among pastures

 

Just keep moving forward

 

How life can take on different hues with different mindsets

 

Riding the roller coaster of emotions

 

Your favorite piece of jewelry

 

New, crisp business cards

 

When you put the dream away and start getting dirty working

 

Actually kissing the ground and smelling the earth

 

Daily exercises

 

Commitments

 

The science behind motivation

 

Examining yourself

 

Leading with your heart

 

Falling in love

 

Everyone being your teacher

 

Not always being happy

 

Dressing up to fly

 

Who knows where we’ll be in five years

 

The depth that is before you

 

The meditation of scuba diving

 

Stopping my avoidance of pain and bracing myself for it

 

Dancing and singing at the top of your lungs

 

Summer Camp

 

Being Chaplain of a sorority

 

Joy being a catch-word of the season

You, a friend in life and over the page