I am in a grumpy mood.
My body is bloated with the frustration. My mind is revolting against work. I find I am angry at inanimate objects like my computer and lights, and then frustrated at things out of my control like the sweltering Georgia heat.
What is going on?
This is very different from my usual self.
When I asked myself this question a few moments ago my mind began to answer – Well, you didn’t have breakfast. Well, it’s Thursday, maybe you are tired. It’s the task. You just don’t like this one task you have to do.
But then I had a thought. I was happier earlier, when it was still Thursday. I was fine when I actually did eat something when I was hungry. And I like working!
Then I realized it. I had my first negative interaction at work, and it threw me. My supervisors had sent me to someone, since that is what had done when they were in my shoes, and she looked at me and goffed at my request.
I felt like a kid again when your teacher scolds you for something that literally you had no idea about. She laughed at me like I should know better.
But I didn’t.
Thinking of this, I can see, that her rudeness planted a seed in this day for me, that continues to grow rapidly, squeezing out the focus, nutrients, and need the other healthier and chosen plants and things in my life need. Her one comment grew in my day suffocating the good that I usually feel.
But luckily, as any planter knows, we can all weed.
Yet, how do we do weed on an emotional and a mental level?
I think it is very individual, but even right now, I find processing, writing and sharing about it is helping tremendously.
We can focus and do a task that we not only like, but that helps boost our confidence.
We can move our bodies, shake them, jump them, stretch them, mold them so that eventually they too can’t carry the discomfort of the comment.
We can made a happy list, a practical one, to be used to bring back our focus on the good things in life. Or we can read a happy list!
We can clean up our immediate surroundings. Some times cleaning up around us, cleans up the junk within us.
Maybe even take a break with a caffeinated drink. The extra jump might get us out of our slump.
Yes. Thank you for listening to a blog that was a processing blog. A blog that worked to get me out of my head and mood, and into the actions I can take to create and be and experience what I most greatly desire. Thanks for listening.
Here is to a great rest of the day.